June 12

I know I have little to complain about but most who know me would think some one else was writing if I did not whine.

I met with the surgeon yesterday he was very encouraging short of wanting me to do another round of chemo after surgery. He is the only one not concerned and actually happy with my weight loss, apparently it makes his job easier. We are waiting for some answers, but the surgery will either be on July 22 or July 29. He remains very positive (97%) that the surgery will be successful and this will all be a bad memory in 6 months. He won't give me a 100% guarantee because then if he is wrong it will effect his sleep.

Cynthia and I met with the oncologist after the surgeon. He too was very positive but also warned me that the radiation and chemo keep working in my body and not to expect too much. He does not want to deal with the chemo after the surgery until they get the pathology on the lymph nodes, which will happen during the surgery. I was very disappointed to hear that if I do the chemo after it will be more intense and for 4 months.

The oncologist also warned me about sun exposure for the next 4 weeks. We are trying to plan a family vacation for July before the surgery but I think my fishing trip with Aaron for his graduation will have to be postponed or modified.

Cynthia did ask if there were diminished cognitive abilities due to the chemo; unfortunately, the oncologist did say there was a term "chemo brain." I have a feeling that statement is going to fuel many more "discussions" in our family especially with the election coming up. Just remember, I was a republican before the chemo, if thing change one can only assume...

The pain and exhaustion this week has been more intense than ever and my sleep has not been good, but I really have little to complain about. The doctors are all still very positive about the long term results, the nausea is for the most part gone, I can start back on a mild exercise routine including the bow flex and I know I am going to feel better with in the next few weeks. Most importantly, I am very thankful for the the love and support of my friend and family.

I will update again as the surgery date is finalized.